| Cyneheard Frealaf: Anno mcmxlii, se xvii dæg þæs monþes þe mon nemneð haligmonað |
[Jan. 31st, 2009|08:38 am] |
Estrid has taken wing, Mindred says for the last time tonight, to talk to the winds and the clouds while they still talk to us, which will be perhaps for another hour yet. I wonder if they would still speak to me, it has been a little time now, well, years I suppose, since I have needed to try. While Estrid lives, there is no need to try, and no time. No time before they are taken for a time by my sister's accursed grandson, her true image and faithful heir. Afterwards, if Estrid does not live, it will take more than I by far to rouse them.
My sister was always angry that it's the children of the mists who do this most easily, rather than us, the Frealafs who were most human, most like to the King. Well, so she argued. I've never made any claim to be like to the King: I live on His lands, which respect me as long as I am gentle to them, in remembrance of Him. It is a kind of love, but not His kind of love, which is not gentle or patient, or conditional for that matter. I am merely his custodian, in the absence of someone like my grandmother, or like Estrid, the land needs a custodian, or asks for one, while it waits. And that was my sister's real problem. She could have been custodian rather than me, certainly would have been in fact, but that was not enough, she had to have wings.
My dear, you stole many many things from us, all those many years ago, but you never did steal that, did you? Fæderswice.
I see so little in any event, and of tonight I see nothing. Nothing but darkness, and in the darkness the wind rustles, but I cannot make out if it is the sound of wings in the distance, or merely the wind dying down forever, and how I have tried to tell these last few days. Estrid sees more than this, but says less, not even to Mindred, who is left with the lost daughter, to try and explain what she does not know already. Gillian, I would talk to her if I could, who else can tell the right stories? But there is no time. |
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